CNY’s almost here! O:

lols. been kinda bored but…
was feeling kinda emo-ish all of a sudden yesterday. ><
blahh. just abt the guys in my life lahh.
it’s like so messed up man.
omg. suddenly, i just dunno how to face my emotions.
so i emo-ed for a while. LOL. o.o

hahas. i’m kinda running away frm the issue right now.
don’t wanna face it just yet. LOL.
(omg, i still can admit that sia. lols. :X)

and i can’t say that nobody wants me lahh huh.
it is; i have too many to choose from. LOL.
and it’s hard to reject mannnnn~ o.o

rahhh. forget it lahh. i’m just gonna trash it all out lahh. -.-

i’ve someone new in mind… kinda obvious alr right…? LOL.
butbut, idk what i shld do lahhh. omg. ><

and i’m ready to give up the other one i used to hang on.
(been hanging on for too long alr, and i’m not only sick of waiting…
i don’t want to bring 2008 in 2009. cuz, 2008 sucked as much as it could alr.
and i just wanna move on & lead, probably – a better life in 2009.)
if you’re ever reading this, then i hope you’ll understand and find someone else better…

unless you tell me or show me that you’ll change.
ugh… i’ve been waiting for too long le lahhs!
GIVE ME AN ANSWER OR SOMETHING. before i pass my vedict on myself…

as for the OTHER one, we’ve nvr even started officially.
how am i supposed to give my 100%?!
plus… we both know each other’s situation very clearly.
you tell me that being tgt isn’t abt the title, but by happiness.
and i just don’t think that way.
best way is just remain as friends.
even if you were ever single, let’s see, i won’t choose you in the end. lol.
i know too much to be with you.
and it BUGS me. i can’t trust you enough. so yeah.

ughhhh.
i desreve a spanking plus a wake up call & some lecturing. O:
i need a reality check on my love life! DD:

…..
okays. nvm that. anyways…
yesterday, audi got patch. LOL.
other than the new beat up mode; team battle… oso got new songs.

*getting rdy to sing~!*

ooh la la~
ooh la la~
ooh la la~
ooh la la~
ooh la la~
ooh la la~
ooh la la~

NASI GUA WOO JI BA BANNNNNNNN~
JI BA BANN~
GUA WOO JI BA BAN, JIT SI LANG TIO KHIN SAN~
BO KONG, BO LANG ZAI…
KONG TIO JIN PAISEHHHHH~
CHIAK KA AN NI DUA HAN…
KO EM PAI JE PUAY KEE!~

PAH PIA HUA CHUEY NI~
BO CHIA, BO CHU, KO BO AI LIN…
KUA LANG CHUA BO KO CHUEY SHEN LI~
WU JI KO WU SEHH~

sounds familiar ehh?
huh huh huh huh?
(i followed the lyrics mostly to youtube. LOL. this vid is damn kawaii lahhh! xD
kinda put another vid of the same song on facebook too. ^^v)

LOL. xD
OMG lahhhhhhh.
i die die oso cannot believe audi will put this song in there lahh! LIKE WTF MANNNN.
holy moly crap shits lahh. lols.
i’m still wondering WHY sia. hahaha~

but i think all those who loves, speaks & understand the dialect, hokkien, will enjoy this song very much.
LOLS. ESP. TO ALL SINGAPOREANS MANNNNNN. woohoo~!
(which definitely includes me lahh! LOL. i’m a descendent of a hokkien family, ya knw! xD)

ROFL. was playing audi through the night with my audi cpl, lucyfer. (:
and i heard the new patch’s songs. LOL.
my jaw literally dropped when i heard that song. SERIOUSLY. O_O
wahahahahahas.
but i’m getting a high just by singing it all day long…. HAHAHAHA~
oh, S.H.E’s ‘Universe’ was in there too. (a hit single frm their new album.)
and Fahrenheit’s ‘Ai Dao’ is in there too. lol.
(everyone was singing in the lobby: “AI DAO~ AI DAOOOOOOOO~!” -ROFL. and JI PA BAN~~ omg. LOLS.)
2 more songs were JJ’s ‘Killa’ and another by judy-smth. LOL. i kinda forget the name & the title of the song lahhs. paisehhhh~ ><” -liked these 2 songs! ;D

ohh, audi’s bubp got bug again. LOL. xD
just realised this morning…
so, i just quickly earn my next mil in like 10 rounds+! HAH.

planning to get acash soon sia. cuz i need a new image. IMMEDIATELY.
RAHHH~!!! lols.
and imma gonna change my ign too.
planning to also open a guild soon. ^^v
(looking for pretty blogskins 1st. hahas.)

ahhh. speaking abt audi, i passed my lvl 18 licence on the afternoon of 19th Jan! HAHA~
lols lahh. i was trying like a lot of times before i can pass. LOL.
then one fineeeeee moment, i finally pass, just 1k plus abv the requirements! LOL. O_O
GOODDDDDNESSSSS.
i punched my fist into the air & just screamed, YESSSSS, FINALLY MANNNN~! xD

hahahas. so happy tht i’ve passed. now is wait for the nxt licence.
and while ‘waiting’, it’s time to CHIONG BU. lols. or smth else. heh.

hmmmm…
okays, enuff abt audi. lol.

uhhh, my entrance test at nafa was like so so bahh.
with everyone ard me doing so much better in terms of designing…
i kinda have no confidence liao worrs. ><”
LOL. && i hope the results will come out soon! D:
cuz i heard MOE will be announcing the JAE results on the 30th, which is nxt friday! D:
omg. now, i’m kinda afraid sia. LOL.

if i ever get into NP’s DAVT… then i might just choose to just go there alr.
cuz i kinda figured out that… i’m more of a mechanical person then an artistic one.
my artistic side is only VISUALLY good. not HANDS-ON good.
lols. and davt is like more of machines & buttons & stuff liddat.
which kinda excites me a lil’. hahas. xD
besides, life at poly is more happening. so yeah, i might just go there even if i can get into nafa. LOL.
all’s nt firmly decided yet though.

lols. after the test, i met up with lucyfer aka JD; my audi cpl. ^^v
he was helping me to find some gothic loli dresses for the SOY’09 at NP this 31st.
hmmmm… idk lahh. lols. it’s more of a cosplay event though.
(and lacus clyne’s ‘wedding’ dress is really so pretty lehhs. *sobs*
the details are all there~ goshhh! but it’s so expensive lah~ T-T
LOL. it’s my dream dress man. hahas. i even bookmarked the page. xD no more small size liao. o.o LOL. -all i need now is her hair. lol. )

i’m contemplating with the thought nw that… if i shld still go anort lehhs. lol.
dun really feel like going uhhs. as in to check out the ppl there, yes. cuz imma no mood for cosplay. x.x

anyways…
i think he’s just the nxt awesome guy i’ve come across sehh~! xD ~<3
kekes. i’m glad tht i’m friends with him. at least lahh. LOL… X:

hmmmm…
ohyesh, boys have been jio-ing me out lately.
just tht i ain’t got the mood to go out. lol… and the money & sometimes, the time.
(my time limit is UGHHHH. damn my mum lahh. -.-)

siannnnnnn~
tmr gt event oso cannot go lahh…
at a place near plaza sing… :3
frm 9pm to 4am lehhs. omg. I WANNA GO PARTY THE NIGHT AWAY~
but i dont think my mum would let mehh.
so i’m just gonna once again, NUA at home. ==”

lols. this year’s CNY eve & week is so gonna be b.o.r.i.n.g~ T_T
hahahas. excluding the visit to my mum’s side. LOL. xD
i wanna go have fun & party at least a night away…. *sighs*
guess i’ll nvr have that chance yet. *sobs*

hahas. okays lahh. i’ll be stopping here & going off to do my other stuff alr. (:
might be audi-ing again later tonight. SHHHH. X:
woots~ i wanna just chiong sia! xD
abit vry addicted liao larhhs. kekes. xP

lalalalas~ so much for today… X:
buhbyes.

say sayonara to 2008, baby!~

LOL. and h-e-l-l-o to 2009!

hahas. well, nt yet lahh. just in advance, lol.
and goodness, i’ve nt summed up my 2008 life.
(it’s gonna hurt more than i can say… but i wanna just type this all down.)

soooo~ here goes my story!

in the beginning of the year, (jan to april ’08)
there was this guy named ace.
we weren’t exactly together lehh.
though we spent dec ’07 & jan ’08. (countdown. lol.)
met up a few times though. lol. but i guess he wasn’t serious, so that’s over.

also, mervin & myst (i’ve mentioned him. ;P) were quite into my life for awhile…
due to me hanging out at the arcade. LOL.

and then, my old blog had quite some attention.
i was thinking if those bitches were up to this. seriously.
not that i really care anyways.

still was playing ard at the beginning too. lol.
haven’t started studying. X; -oops?

CNY came and go.
then came Valentine’s Day.
spent it being single… but i was glad i had jou & sharon! thanks guys~ <3
went to plaza singapura to celebrate.
& i remembered jou was with timothy & sharon with kevin back then. lol.
had an awesome time. (:
in sch… i could just feel the love vibes mann. xD
it was just as great too. hahas.

ohoh. SG WINS THE BID FOR HOSTING THE YOG IN 2010! xD
(tht is why you see in the news now, that the MOE & the government -i think…- wants all schools to have this Olympic Education in our curriculum. omg. LOL. and EVERYONE HAS TO TAKE IT.
it’s really COMPULSORY.)

then, came the registration of the GCE O Levels thing. D:
it’s getting closer.

ahhhh. 29th Feb 2008.
only happens once in every four years. ^^
and there was a movie dedicated to this date too luhhs! ~cool! ;D
it’s called, The Leap Years. (:

march kinda sucked cuz of the enormous pile of holiday homework we had to do. omg.
practically no time for play.

hahas. and i remembered i passed my physics AND beat Tao Hang’s score. by 2 marks. HAH.
lols. it was DAMNNNNN RARE. and also, a cause for celebration! woots~! D

ohhh. got attached to this guy named leon. hahas. leon TAN.
knew him from audi. & i think i kinda scared him off. HAHAHAHA~ lol. X:

and 5 ppl from our class dropped subjects & transfered to 4F. DD:

MAROON FIVE CAME TO SINGAPORE FOR A NIGHT ONLY! ><
missed it lahhs. *sighs*

another few days later, i got attached with another boy with the same name.
with the surname ONG. X:
we only lasted for 8 days. sucks man. also so compliacted de relationship. siannnn~
and i thought we would last for a very long time.
he was the one i loved the most.
and who hurt me the most… at that time lahh.
i lost something so precious to him. and he did all this things to me. jerk! D:<
cried & emo for days & nights.
really regretted it.

but then.. coming to think of it. he seriously opened up the world for me.
and i saw things in life frm a different prespective since then.
so, yeah, i’m actually appreciative of that. and him. lol.

and, i wasn’t behaving still. hahas. tio in-house suspension for a day. D;
lol~ and Olvl Chinese Oral Prelim started the next day. hahas.

got to know edmund after that…
my godbrother. a very complicated relationship we had too.
history repeated, and i was dumped again.
cried again, emo again. haiish.
soon, we aren’t on talking terms anymore.

felt like a bitch that time.
goodness. i was almost screwing up my life back then. ugh.
heng i stopped treating myself liddat and woke up.

hmmm… that came to nearing the middle of the year alr…. (may to aug ’08.)
which starts the MYEs. damnnnn~ all those exams. T-T
lol. nvr really studied anyway. :/

was still recovering frm being sad and all that shitty stuff…
when someone came into my life. ^^
again, i knew him frm audi.
hahas. actually, we were just acquaintances abt a year ago.
and that time, he was already attached. but that was okays.
i just thought it was just an infatuation of mine.
and then we lost contact for some time…. before i saw him online again. (:

and we cpled in audi before we got tgt in reality. <3
had really alot of ups & downs with him back then.
and lasted for 43 days.
so far, my longest relationship then.
and i was devastated when he dumped me. T-T
cried & emo-ed like nobody’s business when imma alone. haiish.
on paper, on myself & on my blog.
had to put up a strong front every time i face the world.

i even dedicated a blog just for him. lol.
but i’ve alr deleted it.
however again, all the details of our relationship are all in black & white.
in my notebooks, kept safely away… ((x

hahas. i had a hard time putting him & our memories away frm my mind so that i can get on with life…
and idk abt him. lols…

felt even worse when he scolded me on my birthday. oO”
& i thought we could spent the day tgt… if we were still tgt, that is.
but at that time, it was all history.
ohwells.

and so, by that time, i had someone liking me. lol.
but i couldn’t let go of my ex. so i rejected him. X:
he was my taizi lorr. LOL. if you got read my old blog. blehh. xP
(being brutally evil with words, i think he isn’t good looking at all? LOL.)
but he had that character which soften my heart… awwww~! LMAO. o.o

then came ricky. (:
i felt for him too. lol. but it was nearing the prelims & Os uhh. D:
did had that mutual feeling for each other, but it didn’t last long lahh.
(which was much later ard… october.)
just like leon TAN. hahas. same attitude with me lorr.
i think they’re just cowards sometimes. -.-
hmph. i don’t really give a damn anymore.

ohohoh~ the Beijing Olympics was awesomeeeeeeee! right? xD
wahahahas. i’m damn proud to be a chinese. ^^v
it got everybody up and watching lorrs.
biggest event of the year lorrs. globally uhh. ((:

then, National Day. went out with jou to watch the fireworks. ^^
at the Singapore Flyer. hahas.
it was also awesome.
even though.. it was only the 2 of us. LOL.

prelims ended soon after, and i had a fun time at wild wild wet!
(belated bday gift frm my english tutor. LOL.)
but horr, MY AUDI TIO PROBLEM.
bleeps. ):

and soon, the ending of 2008 is here… (sept to dec ’08.)
coming up would be the major exam for al sec 4s & 5s.

O LEVELS.

HOLYYYY MOLLLYYYYY~ DD;
*psst~* i’ve nt studied much yet anyways. hahas. X:

hmmm… went for my first guild outing! woots!
i saw my nuer there! ^^v
lols. had quite some fun. hahas. and i was the one who organised the event. nt bad ehh!
daniel didn’t come though. (yeah, he’s the guild master too.)
ohwells. *sulks*

(up till then, i’ve nt given up the hope that he’ll take me back… even though i knew it was quite impossible.)

&& i’ve also missed Avril Lavigne’s concert in Singapore too lehhs. T-T
another one sia. haiish.

ard that time… i had alot of flings. ><”
heh. and i had quite a hard time to shake them off sometimes. lol.

also, everyone in sg was damn hyped up abt…
THE FIRST SINGTEL F1 GP NIGHT RACE IN SINGAPORE.
woots~! xDD
i practically kept my butt glued onto the sofa for the whole race siol.
and even kept up with every second of the race with two chnls! X:
like switching in between chnl 5 & the sports chnl on cable tv. hehes.
i was glad i had fiesal to accompany me throughout the race man…
(just a guy friend of mine luhh.)

hahas. had my phone confiscated frequently. but it was soon returned. lol.

and i still rmb dan calling me out for a movie. super unexpected.
but i couldnt since it was at night mahh. lol. then my mum also dun allow. ==”
ohwells.

argh. i had some trouble back then too. like damn those boys.
so nt interested liao, still come disturb.
thanks to jou (<3!) & rory! (her current bf now. ^^)
they helped me to get rid of them ehhs. ;D

soon, i was starting to study alr…
the Os were already arriving.
was still kinda scared if i can’t make it lehhs. lol.

again arhhh. crap.

i missed Kanye West’s concert in Sg oso lorr!
i heard it was awesome siol. dang!~ T.T
and i’m one of his (recent) fans can! *sighs*
what was suck-ier is that it was held during the period of the Os still! OMG. *double sigh*
wtf. i’ve been missing too many concerts this year.
and it’s all because of the Os. rahhhhh!~

hmmmm…. Audition Season 2 came out.
but i hadn’t have the chance to play yet since up till then (and now.), my audi still gt prob.
still cannot work. UGHHHH. -__-

stayed home for halloween though. sian. lol.

ahhh~ and obama won the elections!
CONGRATS TO OBAMA! woots!~~ ^^v
i suddenly became a big fan of his. and idk why either. hahahas.
maybe cuz bush isn’t there anymore?
& that the colour has changed? LMAO.
okays. not trying to be offensive or anything horr. X;

and then, i was just slacking pretty much after that alr. hahas.
changed my phone. and went flirting ard even more again. lol. ><”

had LOADS OF FUN at TPRAWKS!
it was beyond awesome man.
can i relive those days again?
(maybe in nxt yr’s open house bahh.)
but i made a whole lot of new friends! and had loads of fun. ^^
loved it all. <3

suddenly, one day…
daniel came back.
he finally did.
omg. and i thought that day will nvr come true. O_O

and then the rest of decmeber…
it’s all here in this blog. xD
if you’ve been keeping up lorrs. hahas.

and also… if you can see frm my previous post. i’ve made my choice. kekes.
i’m just waiting for him to pop the question again. ^^
(even though right after that post, the nxt night, he left for korea! T-T
&& i can’t spent new year’s eve with him lahhh~ *sobs*
iwantedmynewyear’skissfromhimderhhs!)
i’m missing him sooo muchhhhh~ uwahhh!~~ DD;

ohwells, i have a date later anyways.
hehes. as long as i’m still single… and in an open relationship…
i still can be in the dating scene, right? X:
so yeahhh. muahahahas.
at least, tonight, i won’t be spending new year’s eve alone. (:

ohhh. but i’ve nt gotten my outfit up yet lehhs!
shucks. better go do it soon.
and do up my nails too. heh.
(sounding like a bimbo worr? ROFLMAO.)

the best parties would be at,

Vivocity. – Channel 8′s countdown party venue.

Marina Bay. – Channel 5′s countdown party venue.

and Siloso Beach. – They’re having an awesome party there too.

too bad, the last 2 places need tickets sia.
and for the siloso beach party, idk if imma old enuff to go anyways.

so yeah.
that’s abt it! ((:
i’ll be back tmr to update on today’s outing! ^^v
cya ppl!~

and have an awesome day! ;D xD

–[[Happy New Year to all!]]–

boxing day; get ready your gloves & presents.

ahhhhhhh~! xDD
i’m like probably the most happiest girl in the world right now! ((:

…LOLS.
no lahh. just very, very, very, happy that i’ve finally settled that ‘problem’ i had. X:

and i knw that i’m late in making this statement arhh.
paisehh…

y’know, if i’m nt blogging.
it’s usually bcuz, imma mapling, or my lappy’s kidnapped.

and i’ve nt been online for a very long cuz of my mum.
so it’s the latter. hahas.

so, since that day…
i’ve nt seen him.
we’re planning to meet on Christmas’ Eve.
but then, he couldn’t make it last min. *sighs*
family dinner. ohwells.

Christmas Day itself, i couldn’t make it instead. ==”

goodness, when will i be able to see him again uhh?

haiish.
truthfully speaking, we said that we’ll restart again.
but then, for the past few days, i’m not seeing the effort he’s putting in.
so why shld i, right?
and no matter how nice i tried talking to him…
all his replies sounds & looks… so dead. o.o
omg~ T-T
why isn’t he as lively as he was back then? DD:<

ugh. he has gotta buck up.
and really up his game, damnit. unless he isn’t interested anymore.

because, right now, there’s a new guy in town.
lol. in my life. hahas.

he’s nt exactly new either…
since… i knew him last year.
and i used to crush on him for quite some time. xP
… before i lost contact with him & nvr seen him since lahh. LOL. o.O
i did mention abt him before… previously in my old blog. hahas.

the name’s myst.

cool name right! and it’s NOT GAY. roar.
you say gay, i kill you! D:<
lols. xP

the place was at tm’s arcade; the para machine! <3
the time was 2nd September 2007.
(OMG. i did write down the date okays! xD)
that was during the september school holidays uhh. ^^
i was happily choing-ing para at that time. LOLS.

i remembered that… zaki. that malay guy who was interested in me.
LOL. he popped the qn on that day lahh. OMG.
i had to reject him since it was…
his friend that i was liking, instead of him lahh.

(omg. i finally said this secret out! DD: LOL.
after abt a year plus! :O)

ever since then, i had a crush on him.
until one day, i decided to stop since i thought i wasn’t gonna see him again…
and cuz i didn’t had his number back then. so yeah.
after FOUR WHOLE MONTHS… i decided to stop.

……
but then, just when i least expected him to appear at the arcade…
he really just came one fine day lorr! wtf. ahaahahahas~
(ard early this year lahh. lols.)

&&~ i was totally stunned.
he was looking SO FREAKING MUCH BETTER than when i first saw him uhh. xDD
*squeals & jumps inside~*
kekes. just suddenly so shuai.
and so, as expected of myself, i fell for him once again. ;D
rofl… very on-off de lahhs. ><”
(just like how i used to like vicson…. but i still liked him until a year plus. lols. my 1st major crush lehhs!)

hahas. this one… isn’t much of a major one.
but i still fell for him. xD

and yeah, i managed to get his number! ^^v
so…. i’ve been msging him since.
lols. after my cousin’s wedding uhh, we suddenly lost contact.

even totally forgotten to msg him on his bday. ><”~
omg. 31st august. i owe him one! LOL. X:

it was only until this christmas, i finally decided to talk to him again.
by giving well wishes as a starter. hahas.
(after the Os & stuff lahh. lol.)
i still rmb him even though… i’ve nt seen him for a long time.
hahas. like how’d he looked like.

so, yeah, that’s the story. xP
& i could recognise him at once of course! ^^v
we went out on Christmas Day lorrs! (:

watched Yes Man!! xD
DAMN HILARIOUS.
i was practically laughing my butt off lahh~ LMAOOOO.
i give it 4.5 stars! ^^v
(0.5 less cuz, i thought the storyline could be improved a lil’ better.)
overall… it was great man! there were some parts that made us go, ‘awwww~!’
basically, it had everyone laughing like mad… and some were so good that they clapped!
(so did i!) alrights! D

even though we had to be seated at the 4th row frm the front & at the side…
it was still awesome lahh!

best part of it was that…
there’s this new jack neo flim called, ‘Love Matters’ coming out nxt year.
22nd jan uhhs… the trailer lahh. DAMN FUNNAY.
ESPECIALLY THE LAST PART.
ROFL. that really was the appetizer for the main course lahh! xD
totally awesome, really.

couldn’t stop laughing. hahaha~

and it was so bad, he had to ask me to relax a number of times. LOL. ;P

throughout the movie, he fed me his dinner… oO”
some cheesy pasta which tasted good uhhs. ((x

omg… what kept it unforgettable was…
he held my hand in the cinema.
wasn’t REALLY expecting it lahh. omg. ><”

nt only that, but the time he sent me home…
goodness, sparks really flew uhhs! xD

&& all these happened so sudden, i came home like a blur sotong. O_O

dunno how to explain the feeling mannn…. ><
hahahas. it kept me up almost all night too. o.o

hahaha~
shall keep all the details to myself. X:
no lahh, kidding. only some.

more imptly, he… POPPED THE FREAKING QUESTION.
and i’ve nt given him my answer yet cuz i’m still considering.
dun wanna rush uhhs. ><”

i have like my friends giving me advices alr.
so… i’ll be making my decision soon.

and as for christmas eve…
went out with jou & daniel. the other one.
and we’ve decided to change his name to dennis instead. hahahas. xD

&& i dressed up as a lil’ kitty that night!

really! only without the kitty ears. X:

just hung ard city hall area lorr.
and at marina square. ^^
i played para of course! *grins*
IN HEELS MANN. I CAN DANCE IN HEELS.
those were 3.5 inch heels, dude. seriously, i was dancing in them. hahas.

hahas. forgot to bring more money out…
so my dinner was free! thanks dennis! LOL.

and then, he left for his friends’ function, and i went to play somemore…

then the 2 of us just walked to the Esplanade.
hoping that it wasn’t raining, so that we could take a walk outside & enjoy the night view.
then sit down & chat.
but that was SO the opposite can. ==”
siannnn~ DD:

in the end, we met this lady who was lost… lols.
she wasn’t local, duh. and was trying to find her way back to her hotel.
so we showed her the way back lorrs. lols.
while doing that, we just chatted… more like jou & her lahh.
i was just listening.
and she talked abt liposuction. O_O
wtf uhhs. xD
ahahahahaha~ no wonder my mum went to thailand to do it. so cheap.
and the facilities there were actually GOOD.
like really up to date. and like a hospital. hahahas~
i always thought of it differently though. X:

ohwells, that was something cool i knew! hahahas.
&& we just felt good helping someone.

which kinda made me change my view on this year’s x’mas uhhs. ^^,
really. it’s was actually awesome! *claps*

then dennis came back, since he had nth much to do at his friends’ function. lololol~
we were slacking at raffles city’s starbucks by then.
the one nearer to the mrt station.

and then, go toilet, buy food, since i was hungry. hahas.
then go back arcade to para some more! woots!
i love the crowd lahh.
can’t compare to last year’s one, but better than nth right? (:

soon, jou left, since she didnt had enuff money to stay longer through the night.
*sighs* ohwells. i had fun still, babe! thanks for the gift! ily! <3

and OMG. i saw voxy there lahh!
i was like literally shocked to see him there. o.o
you should totally see my expression. it was priceless man! hahas. (i think.) LOL.
so bhb~ but anyways… i was happy to see him lahh.
so long nvr see him uhhs. so just play para tgt for a while norrs.
he said he was bored frm clubbing, so he came out to para for a while. lmao. xD

then, we left soon after playing a few rounds.
no time go watch movie lerhhs. so yeah.
voxy went back to clubbing, and we cabbed back to my place since my heels were already killing mehh. ><”

invited dennis up to my place for awhile.
and took a bit more photos! ^^v
his camera was wayyyyyy better than mine. so yeah, used his. xP
and then he sent me the photos today lorrs. ((x

alrights. that’s abt it lorrs.
2 days of outing.
and nw, i’m home resting. hahas.
nearly going to be sick cuz of the weather can. lols.

btw, my bro’s all of a sudden nice to meh…
he, ACTUALLY GAVE THE WEBCAM TO MEH. O:
OMG. like finally. hahas. but the webby oso say nt very gd quality ahh.
it’s quite pixelated. lols. xP
but nt bad lehhs.
and he also dl audi on his desktop. allowed me to play worr!
but then horr, nt so nice alr, ask me PAY HIM MONEY TO PLAY.
==” -like lan shop liddat lorrs. wtf.
50cents per one hour. that was as cheap as i could bargain for. ROFL.
have been choing-ing audi since… hahas.

right nw, i’m a lil’ cash-strapped. so can’t play liaos. ==” -sianned.
hehes. ohwells. nvm. still got maple arhhs. kekes.

kkays. damn long post sia, this one. O_O
ending off with a photo i just edited today.
taken 2 nights ago, in my kitty outfit.
just for x’mas ’08.

kyahh~! i love myself. <3 -ROFLMAO.
enjoy the rest of 2008!
and your prezzies! ^^,
(i don’t have alot lahhs. D: only chocolates lorrs. hahas.)
cya soon! nights & buhbyes~ <3

are you back into my life?

ROAR.

i’m back. like… what time is it? LOL.
3am. o.o
here to blog just in case i tmr cannot come online. D:

came home late today uhhs. (yeah, i went out. ^^v)
tio scolding. AS USUAL LAHH. no big deal.
just practically the same old stuff. i return to being a jailbird again.
ahahaha… ohwells.

at least i still have my phone sia. (heng uhh…)

anyways…
it’s confirmed! LOL.
he does come here to read…
idk since when but yeah. at least, he’s alr here.

he quit his job just 2 days ago.
omg. he’s really back. D:
*still shockedsurprised*

and speaking of which, i kinda went over to his place yesterday.
yeah, we’re meeting up after almost 6 mths. O_O

have been kinda scared for no reasons lately.
guessing that he might be one of them who misses me. LOL.
*so narcissistic~* xP
kays, that’s nt the point.

so, yeah. going there was like a walk down through memory lane.
i think that everything stayed the same.
(6 mths just passed. so tht’s nt really a big deal lahh huh..) lol.

even the provision shop that was SUPPOSEDLY to close down…
having their so-called ‘closing down sale, everything must go!’… ==”
it still STAYED THE FREAKING SAME uhh! O_O
ROFL.

and i still could remember the way to his place.
i was
afraid that i would stm & forget/ just forget suddenly.
hahas. it appears not when i reached there.

sat at the study corner we used to sit at, waiting for him to come down.

suddenly, everything, those memories, all flow back into my mind…
in bits & pieces of each scene, the each time i went to find him.
we used to slack tgt there… just the i-look-at-you, you-look-at-me thing.
hahas. how windy his area was esp. at night… (&& still is very very de windehhh~ xD)

just sat thinking.
and cried.

i really missed those times.

no matter what the heck happened between us, i still did.

(and i kinda smudged my eyeliner. crap.
just bought that lorr. lousehh. ==”
ohwells. bluff ppl one lahh, the product. lol.)

it was just so overwhelming when it (the feelings i once had) all comes back.

*sighs* (:

and i was wondering how would he look like…
if he’d changed or anything…
and how he would look like walking… instead of limping, when i last saw him. lol. X:

so, his dress sense is still the same. lol.
for home wear is liddat one lorr. it’s okays uhh. (:
and darn it, he still smelt the freakin’ same. xD
i still do love that smell of his~! <3

and he cut his hair like so much shorter… gives him a fresher & newer look i guess?
hmmm… and seeing him walk properly, was quite nice too. lol? X:

ahahahas. (:
he’s playing KyraMS too.
and he’s actually, ermms. ***king. ==”
LOL. i won’t say anything. X:
kinda played for awhile. and yays~! i’ve gt 4 rebirths now!
(gonna chiong some more with her, when ST comes back! ^^v)

his whole room changed though. LOL.
as in the arrangement, nt the interior furniture. hahahas. xP
his bed was gone. and now just his mattress, is on the floor.
his closet is nw at the other end of his room.
his computer shifted 90 degrees to the left, frm the position same as his door.
but, the many many things in his rm isn’t gone. LOL. O.o
&&, the smell of ciggies in his room. -_-
still, it looked more spacious then before.

so, we watched, one more chance. (chinese title in hanyu pinyin; san ge hao ren.)
lolololololol~ xD
i got watch before luhhhs. with my mum.
cried again luhhs, when i watched it. same 2 parts.
the one whr the dad gave her daughter an umbrella, even though she asked him not to come & fetch her…
and even fell in the rain while walking away…
and the other scene was when his ‘wife’ was going to get married to another man…
in the end, it was the other way round… :’)

*touching, touching*~

jack neo’s really gd at evoking ppl’s feelings. well, at least, he did for meh! D:

so, we were cuddling at the last few parts of the movie… kekes.
i’ve longed for him to hug me like that uhhs. X:
spooning frm behind… *swoons*

ROFL. xD

fell asleep next to him soon after…
after much much cuddling, hugging and those stuffs.

omg. i missed all of it SOOOOOO MUCH. ><”~

i really wanted time to stop just there…
and in my arms.. i REALLY don’t want to let go of him.
i just wanted to hug him so tightly, and nvr let him go again. O’:

it’s almost too good to be true, like i’m living still, in a dream.
reliving every moment when i was with him.

hmmm…
woke up soon after a nice nap.
hahas. ^^,
and realised that it was TEN plus liao. i had to be home at NINE. o.o
uhoh. lols. so i had to go, and he sent meh to the mrt station. (:
thanks uhhs!

and while walking, we passed by some of his slacking friends…
lol. so awkward mann. ._.
ahahahas. saw some familiar & not faces.

….
so i’m up all night just trying to figure out things.
i don’t want to worry too much.
but, we’re both afraid of history repeating.
however, if we don’t try… we’ll nvr knw what’s new in store for us, right?
and i’m actually ready to embrace it all, whether good or bad.

then again, idk what are his concerns…
other than me, nt having a job, and wants me to go find one.
well, i would do that.
but as for others… idk lehh. ><”~

and ricky… he has been in my mind recently. lol. X:
just reminded of him cuz of facebook lahh. hahas. (:
all is good though.

ohyeah. this year’s christmas really sucks.
everyone’s away frm sg to celebrate instead, leaving here so empty…
no ppl to hype with tgt lehhs. ==”
PLUS THE ECONOMIC DOWNTURN…
nt alot of ppl willing to spend so much on x’mas decorations & stuff.
and so… it’s damnnnnnnn dead here.
but i’m still planning to celebrate it.
with giving presents & having a lil’ party i guess?

also, i wanna rebond & do extentions for my hair!!!
esp. before christmas uhh~
(gonna pester my dad once i see him. hmph.)
if only he could fork out more to let me have my contacts done… DD:
*sighs* again, ohwells.

ahhh.
&& i’m done with reading ‘You Are Here’ by Low Kay Hwa.
this my second book frm this author.
damn tragic ending can.
story already so sad liao, still want dramatic tragic ending. ==”
didn’t cry this time. (wellllll~ i nearly did. :X) & i wanted to… lol.
but this time… i was kinda stunned at the ending. wasn’t really expecting her to die just like that.
it’s still a touching story luhhs. (:
and i don’t understand the last part of the story, aka the epilogue.
rofl… like can understand abit i guess? O.o

hmmmm…
tht’s abt it uhhs. for yesterday. hahas. (:
oh, it is now… exactly 6mths since we’ve broken up. LOL.
argh, i won’t harp on it anymore. (shuddup, myself.)
DAMN, i don’t think i need to slp liao. now, 5.30 plus liaos. wtf.
2hr plus of blogging. ==”
(was multitasking arhh. LOL.)
kkays. need to zhao alr.
buhbye then!~ cya soon. X:

troubled out.

ermmms.
idk whr to start off this post today. lol.

hmmm… let’s see.
i was supposed to blog abt my outing uhhhs… hehes.
but i was kinda lazy. O:
as usual.

for 7 dec…
i went out as usual, since my mum wasn’t in sg. hahas.
in the afternoon for late lunch with daniel. X:
it’s the second time i’ve seen him in a row alr. LOL.

we met up, then go to kfc to eat. (:
didn’t eat alot though.
and i finally tasted the Chessy BBQ Meltz for the 1st time! LOL. omg.
’cause the serving was small, so usually i don’t eat that value meal.
but it was really cheesy & yummy! ^^v
and thank you once again for treating to lunch! ;D

actually saw vicky & shuwen there eating. lols.
i wonder if they’ve seen me & him there. hahas.

anyways…
we walked to TM.
he wanted to see domokun! LOL.
so i brought him to that shop… but no more the big sized domo alr! DD:
only left the mini ones! X:
and they were just as cute lahhhh!!~~~ xDD *squeals*
he kept asking if i wanted it & he could buy it for meh.

butbutbut~ it means he’ll have to spend moneh on meh…
lols. and i’ll feel baddddd… *sighs*
so i said nuhhh.

(CRAP. I SAW THIS DOMO BAG THAT WAS LIKE HUGE MAN.
and it’s realllllyyyyy awesomely cute! i’m going to save up & buy it down soon.
or i’ll psycho my parents into giving me the $$$ to go buy… heheheh.
it’s $27.90 i think? lol. forget the price liao… :X -oops.)

after that, we went to the arcade!
actually, it was me who wanted to go play para & ddr… and he wanted to see me dance again. hehes.
so yeah, play a few rounds uhhs.

i found out that he…
kinda slipped away while i was playing.
(hmmm. i spotted it actually. hahas.)
and he bought me that mini sized Domokun! OMG~~~ xDD
*claps*

i’m like sooooooo happy to receive it uhhs! *grins*
thank you SOOOOOO much. <”~
he had to work the nxt day… needed to get up early in the morning.
goshhhh~ (i’m sooooo soooo srry~! T.T)
he must have been feeling so, so, so, tired luhhs. *sighs*

aye~
stopped only at 3plus in the morning…
middle of the freaking night. X:

that night, that morning.
just awesome.

fill in the rest of the details yourself. i’m too ______ to type it out.
LOL. nth dirty man. please.

(9 dec.)
came home early in the morning. bathed & changed.
decided to help out with the housework & stuff (ONLY ABIT LAHH.), then fell back to sleep.

he was busy with work…
and my SMS phone bill was abt to explode.
so i couldn’t really talk to him much. *sighs*

couldn’t get online. my lappy nt with meh. ==”
again, my mum has probs with me.
so i just slept the whole day off…
couldn’t really sleep at night later, which was DUHHH. hahas.

i accidentally let slip of my mini domo (OMG!!!) while standing at the kitchen window…
was trying to sort out my internal probs with myself lahh.
&& i got really, really shocked and scared uhhs! O.O
immediately, i took the keys, opened the door & ran down asap.
i was so scared to lose it…
or even him for the matter.
whatever it was, i was really scared, from the bottom of my heart.

i knw that losing someone can be so hurting inside, let alone SOMETHING.
i was so scared to tears that night. really.
i’ve experienced once and i don’t want to go through the same thing again.

lol… looks like i took it so seriously. X:
at the time when i was running downstairs.

when i gt him back, i was SOOOO relieved.
just hugged domo tightly all the back home.

we’re all shocked at what happened.
and now, come to think of it, are we rushing into things a tad too quick?

*sighs*
i’ll have to slowly figure out by myself then.

when i feel much better and not so confused, i’ll update on my current status. (:
and explain a lil’ more on how imma feeling.
for now, i’ll have to get going. so, sayonara peeps!
cya soon!