ROAR. 
i’m back. like… what time is it? LOL.
3am. o.o
here to blog just in case i tmr cannot come online. D:
came home late today uhhs. (yeah, i went out. ^^v)
tio scolding. AS USUAL LAHH. no big deal.
just practically the same old stuff. i return to being a jailbird again.
ahahaha… ohwells.
at least i still have my phone sia. (heng uhh…)
anyways…
it’s confirmed! LOL.
he does come here to read…
idk since when but yeah. at least, he’s alr here.
he quit his job just 2 days ago.
omg. he’s really back. D:
*still shockedsurprised*
and speaking of which, i kinda went over to his place yesterday.
yeah, we’re meeting up after almost 6 mths. O_O
have been kinda scared for no reasons lately.
guessing that he might be one of them who misses me. LOL.
*so narcissistic~* xP
kays, that’s nt the point.
so, yeah. going there was like a walk down through memory lane.
i think that everything stayed the same.
(6 mths just passed. so tht’s nt really a big deal lahh huh..) lol.
even the provision shop that was SUPPOSEDLY to close down…
having their so-called ‘closing down sale, everything must go!’… ==”
it still STAYED THE FREAKING SAME uhh! O_O
ROFL.
and i still could remember the way to his place.
i was
afraid that i would stm & forget/ just forget suddenly.
hahas. it appears not when i reached there.
sat at the study corner we used to sit at, waiting for him to come down.
suddenly, everything, those memories, all flow back into my mind…
in bits & pieces of each scene, the each time i went to find him.
we used to slack tgt there… just the i-look-at-you, you-look-at-me thing.
hahas. how windy his area was esp. at night… (&& still is very very de windehhh~ xD)
just sat thinking.
and cried.
i really missed those times.
no matter what the heck happened between us, i still did.
(and i kinda smudged my eyeliner. crap.
just bought that lorr. lousehh. ==”
ohwells. bluff ppl one lahh, the product. lol.)
it was just so overwhelming when it (the feelings i once had) all comes back.
*sighs* (:
and i was wondering how would he look like…
if he’d changed or anything…
and how he would look like walking… instead of limping, when i last saw him. lol. X:
so, his dress sense is still the same. lol.
for home wear is liddat one lorr. it’s okays uhh. (:
and darn it, he still smelt the freakin’ same. xD
i still do love that smell of his~! <3
and he cut his hair like so much shorter… gives him a fresher & newer look i guess?
hmmm… and seeing him walk properly, was quite nice too. lol? X:
ahahahas. (:
he’s playing KyraMS too.
and he’s actually, ermms. ***king. ==”
LOL. i won’t say anything. X:
kinda played for awhile. and yays~! i’ve gt 4 rebirths now!
(gonna chiong some more with her, when ST comes back! ^^v)
his whole room changed though. LOL.
as in the arrangement, nt the interior furniture. hahahas. xP
his bed was gone. and now just his mattress, is on the floor.
his closet is nw at the other end of his room.
his computer shifted 90 degrees to the left, frm the position same as his door.
but, the many many things in his rm isn’t gone. LOL. O.o
&&, the smell of ciggies in his room. -_-
still, it looked more spacious then before.
so, we watched, one more chance. (chinese title in hanyu pinyin; san ge hao ren.)
lolololololol~ xD
i got watch before luhhhs. with my mum.
cried again luhhs, when i watched it. same 2 parts.
the one whr the dad gave her daughter an umbrella, even though she asked him not to come & fetch her…
and even fell in the rain while walking away…
and the other scene was when his ‘wife’ was going to get married to another man…
in the end, it was the other way round… :’)
*touching, touching*~
jack neo’s really gd at evoking ppl’s feelings. well, at least, he did for meh! D:
so, we were cuddling at the last few parts of the movie… kekes.
i’ve longed for him to hug me like that uhhs. X:
spooning frm behind… *swoons*
ROFL. xD
fell asleep next to him soon after…
after much much cuddling, hugging and those stuffs.
omg. i missed all of it SOOOOOO MUCH. ><”~
i really wanted time to stop just there…
and in my arms.. i REALLY don’t want to let go of him.
i just wanted to hug him so tightly, and nvr let him go again. O’:
it’s almost too good to be true, like i’m living still, in a dream.
reliving every moment when i was with him.
hmmm…
woke up soon after a nice nap.
hahas. ^^,
and realised that it was TEN plus liao. i had to be home at NINE. o.o
uhoh. lols. so i had to go, and he sent meh to the mrt station. (:
thanks uhhs! 
and while walking, we passed by some of his slacking friends…
lol. so awkward mann. ._.
ahahahas. saw some familiar & not faces.
….
so i’m up all night just trying to figure out things.
i don’t want to worry too much.
but, we’re both afraid of history repeating.
however, if we don’t try… we’ll nvr knw what’s new in store for us, right?
and i’m actually ready to embrace it all, whether good or bad.
then again, idk what are his concerns…
other than me, nt having a job, and wants me to go find one.
well, i would do that.
but as for others… idk lehh. ><”~
and ricky… he has been in my mind recently. lol. X:
just reminded of him cuz of facebook lahh. hahas. (:
all is good though.
ohyeah. this year’s christmas really sucks.
everyone’s away frm sg to celebrate instead, leaving here so empty…
no ppl to hype with tgt lehhs. ==”
PLUS THE ECONOMIC DOWNTURN…
nt alot of ppl willing to spend so much on x’mas decorations & stuff.
and so… it’s damnnnnnnn dead here.
but i’m still planning to celebrate it.
with giving presents & having a lil’ party i guess?
also, i wanna rebond & do extentions for my hair!!!
esp. before christmas uhh~
(gonna pester my dad once i see him. hmph.)
if only he could fork out more to let me have my contacts done… DD:
*sighs* again, ohwells.
ahhh.
&& i’m done with reading ‘You Are Here’ by Low Kay Hwa.
this my second book frm this author.
damn tragic ending can.
story already so sad liao, still want dramatic tragic ending. ==”
didn’t cry this time. (wellllll~ i nearly did. :X) & i wanted to… lol.
but this time… i was kinda stunned at the ending. wasn’t really expecting her to die just like that.
it’s still a touching story luhhs. (:
and i don’t understand the last part of the story, aka the epilogue.
rofl… like can understand abit i guess? O.o
hmmmm…
tht’s abt it uhhs. for yesterday. hahas. (:
oh, it is now… exactly 6mths since we’ve broken up. LOL.
argh, i won’t harp on it anymore. (shuddup, myself.)
DAMN, i don’t think i need to slp liao. now, 5.30 plus liaos. wtf.
2hr plus of blogging. ==”
(was multitasking arhh. LOL.)
kkays. need to zhao alr.
buhbye then!~ cya soon. X:
